Anxious. Nervous. Excited.

I dont think I have been more nervous in a long time.  I'm so incredibly excited, but within 7.5 hours I will know where I am going to spending the next 18 months of my life!!  AHHHHH I cant wait this long.  (That's assuming my call even comes today!!) 

Mission call opening.... T minus 53 hours.  It cannot come soon enough!!!

Am I mean for not wanting to help a student who gets on the help list literally 2 MINUTES after I had helped him with a completely different problem??  Can you not at least try to pretend you struggled through the problem a little bit???   And when I go over to help him he has to minimize his Facebook chat window?  Maybe I'm just a mean, super impatient person, but it got me really annoyed. 

Something exciting!!

So to make up for that not so exciting post like 2 seconds ago, I figure I'd unveil something very exciting that is coming up in my life...

drumroll...

My mission papers are officially in (as of last Wednesday)!!!  I get my call in approximately 8 days - hopefully!  That is wayy too far away.  I can barely even sleep at night just thinking about it all!  Ahh.  I'm pretty much siked for it.

Maybe in a few days I'll get around to creating one of those silly Facebook groups to have people guess where I'm going...so be thinking!

So I have one half an hour break on Tuesdays...(yes Karalyn and Annie I am thankful for that super loonng break).  Anyways, I was in the Talmage building and head over to my lab.  Well, I guess its not my lab, but I call it my lab because its the only one I ever go to these days.  And usually I have something productive I have to be working on during my break...but today I really could not find one pressing thing.  Look at my Google Calender for proof!

No homework till Thursday!  And then just a little reading on Friday.  I know I should probably be getting ahead or studying or something, but I don't even have another midterm for another 3 weeks!  And I don't have another CS lab due for another 2.  This is big!  (I know I'll probably remember something huge I should've been doing in like an hour, but for right now I am stress free!)

I know, super random, and no one is probably interested, but it was a nice little surprise for me.  Maybe I'll actually go running today...We'll see.

I'm happy. Don't I look happy? This is me happy! See! Happy-happy-happy-happy-happy-happy-happy!

Guess the movie!  Mom, you better get this...  I actually looked up the actual quote just now and apparently I've been quoting it wrong for too long.  But anyways, this is ME happy happy happy.

Today was just a good day.  For a long time I feel like I've been in turmoil over my life and growing up and just making so-called "big decisions" (overrated...haha...just kidding, they are big).  But I've almost sorted out most of the big decisions in my life right now and I cant tell you how much I really feel at peace.   Obviously, I don't have all the answers right now, no one really does, but tonight it just hit me that things will all work out eventually...hopefully.  haha.  But for reals, I know they will, even if its rough getting there, I'll hopefully be better in the end for it?

Tonight I've also have had a new found sense of goal setting.  I've always loved setting goals and have usually been semi-ok with motivating myself to accomplish most of my goals if I really set my mind to it.  But, lets be honest, lately I have been horrible, horrible, horrible with my goals.  Thats going to change.  Today.

Well, that better start with going to focus on the mounds of homework and midterms I should be studying for....


p.s. the movie quote is from Mary Kate and Ashley's, It Takes Two.  Super cute movie - go see it.
p.p.s.  Did I mention I forgot how much I absolutely love reading?  I never have time at school to read for fun, but the past few days I've had to read 150 pages of Pride and Prejudice (I have to finish the rest of it in the next two days) and I'm addicted to reading.  If anyone has any great books I should read, please tell!!

I wish I could give out all the right answers

In the class I TA for, the students are in the middle of their first midterm.  Different then most midterms - its a programming project.  We aren't allowed to help them like we usually do on projects, and sometimes I really like that, but sometimes I really just wish I could give out all the right answers.  I hate seeing these kids (well I guess they're not really kids) struggle and obviously put in so much time and effort and then ask me a question that I'm not supposed to answer.

Secretly, I totally would help you if I could, but I'm not supposed to, so I don't  (well...that is the majority of the time). 

But then again, there are some guys who give me lip when I tell them I cant answer a question, and that makes me really not want to help them at all.

And then there are times when someone will ask me a question SO nicely, I just cant help but respond....and then I feel like I'm giving away too much!

And then there are times when someone will preface their question with "I know you might not be able to answer this, but..."  I hate that, because 90% of the time I cant answer it, but probably 40% of the time I end up answering it reluctantly. Ok maybe not that much, but sometimes I feel like I answer too much (although the students probably think I'm not giving away enough).

Its really not as bad as it sounds, but sometimes I just wish I could give more help on exams.  Why cant everyone just get an A?